you guys keep coming~~ :D

just some random thoughts after the weekend:

1, all you overseas people, please keep coming to HK to visit me~~ XD after raven's and nic's visits (i still hope i can see nic and mio when she gets back D:), i realize how much i miss you all~ i promise to treat you guys to yummy dessert if you do :D (little mui: we will bake together soon! :D)

2, after much debating (whatever .. haha more like convincing my stylist to let me straighten my hair D:) i've cut my hair again and straightened it. i love it now! feels much more like myself than the weird haircut i got pre-CNY. its a lot shorter too and i think i can go for a bit more shorter soon~ will post pics after i get some nice ones taken~ (if ever haha..)

3, there have been some problems with my phone =___=; so i've been missing some random long-d calls; i'm so sorry if you're one of the ppl who've been trying to call but who haven't been able to reach me D:

4, thanks for the random emails, msgs and comments here... i haven't been awesome at responding (i am so sorry D:) but i'm trying! i am really truly thankful for the love and warmth from you all :D

5, i will promise to: i, read a good book/finish up comic books soon; ii, find a good rpg to play again; iii, practice piano and guitar more; iv, try one of lovely ara's delicious recipes (i wish you were here!! miss you tons hon~); v, clean out the old clothes in my closet~ and vi, continue to be optimistic about my unknown, yet exciting (i hope? haha) 'path'~

6, i got my bonus today finally.. something to pay taxes with =___=;

current mood: what am i doing? i have no idea...

ps: thanks fishy: i know you sometimes randomly read my blog (do you have time now? haha) and i really want to let you know that you've helped me SO so so so so so much; i dont know how and where to start explaining :) i promise to be well again soon~ and i will try to cook/bake again like i said i would haha...

touched...

an entry about destiny.

you know it's destiny and someone is special when you meet them randomly more than 10 years ago (i think it's 13 to be exact) through someone that you also met randomly... you then go on to realize that you're the same astrology sign, have the same way of thinking, similar interests etc.; just living in opposite ends of the world (and i mean that literally). then you lose contact for several years, and you drift apart...

however suddenly one day, a few years later, you meet someone who just happens to know that person and through that link, you find that special person again! and you realize after talking again, that after all these years.. NOTHING has changed..you also realize that you may not be the bestest of friends who talk every single day and who see each other often, but there is a bond between you two that cannot be broken simply by time apart.

the finale comes when out of the blue, she happens to read read something on your blog that touches her; because she thought the exact same thing, and went through the exact same struggle, singing the same song.

the conclusion? my special dear dear friend msged me out of the blue to tell me the above.. and in the few msgs we sent back and forth, we knew what had happened to us both without need for any long-winded explanations; we just knew. i haven't been as touched as this in awhile, and i felt like bursting out in tears, although i haven't been able to cry for awhile. to know that someone out there truly really just went thru what you went thru and came to the same eventual conclusion is very very touching; no matter what has happened, you know that what you've decided is correct and that there is no need to be scared; you are never truly alone.

all i can say is thank you for your touching blog entry, especially this:

"I can so openly admit that I love her (haha) and wish with all my heart that she leads a rewarding and an amazing life. If there exists a person out there who is my other half, she would be it. :)"

i love you too! no matter how long we were not in contact, i thought of you constantly and wished the best for you.. especially now that we both have finished struggling, and the skies are no longer cloudy, it'll just get better, i know that for sure.
you are always on my mind dear :) we will always be entwined and connected in some way.

take good care of yourself! although we've never met in person (which is the most shocking part), i hope we get to do that soon~

current mood: truly touched~

ps: mr. tuna, fishy, raven, silly, j9, ara, case bro etc etc. all of you are my special, darling dears and we are all entwined... just think of how we met and how we're still talking/"found each other" again! i am so thankful to have you guys here :)

pps: i will promise to
1. post pics of my bday gifts 2. post cny pics 3. post pics of my new haircut when i get another one this weekend :D

ppps: here is a pic from my bday dinner/drinks with the rhhs bunch :D love you guys~

thanks :D i'm seeing the the sunshine for real!

just a short note (i'll write a long update about CNY and such later on when i have more time haha.. sorry! i need pics from ppl still!) to all my dears:

i love you all. and i know now :) i was so lost before, and didn't realize...it took a lot before i could see the whole situation clearly! i want to tell you all that i'm ok, and no longer need to worry about me... no matter where u guys are, toronto, ottawa, vancouver, japan, hk or anywhere.. i hear your cheering, i feel your support, and i see the love... and i am sooo thankful that this situation brought back my dear dear friends.

i promise now that i will not do this to myself anymore, and i realize how effortless it was.... i didn't realize that yeah it's tough but it isn't as bad as i thought it would be; it was only bad because i imagined it would be and not that it really was!

current mood:

raven~ as promised, next time u see me, i will be so different! i was so glad to see u for that one hour no matter how short.. i miss u a lot already but i will visit u for sure. i can't wait to see you again!! please promise to take me around to places and to delicious food :D

nic~ call me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

silly~ muah! i love you, that's all you need to know. i will wait for u to come back to try that delicious wine :D

mr. tuna~ thank you! i cannot say anything else.. i see it now and am sooo glad for your support!

happy chinese new year!

i will post pics from those several days soon :D

for now, i found an old old song that i've loved since I was... 14-15? so for many years i've sang this song and only recently remembered it. the lyrics:

光の中へ

握りしめた手をほどいたなら
たぶんこれですべてが今終わってしまう

知りたかったこと　傷つくことさえも
何ひとつ　やり残したままで

あなたが出会う幸せを願いたいはずなのに
できない未熟な自分に　拭いても涙が出る

さよなら
愛してる　あなたを誰より
宙(そら)よりも深く
泣かないで
また会おうね
でも会えないこと　私だけ知っているの

こんな運命をえらんだこと
いつかあなたにも本当の意味が分かるわ

二人作った記憶の宝
ずっと心の隠れ家で生きてくよ

きれい事だと思ってた希望という言葉を
苦しいくらい抱きしめてあなたを見上げている

ありがとう
愛している　あなたを誰より
夢よりも強く
抱きしめて　離さないで
だけど一言も　伝えられないで . . .

泣かないで　愛している
遠く離れてても
あなたと生きてゆける

current mood:

my birthday celebration post :D

i finally have a little bit of time after my birthday to write down and post pics of everything. thanks again for all the surprises and fun and love :D

jan 28~ had a lovely bday lunch and dinner with irene and ray :D (thanks!) i was feeling a bit off that day but felt a lot better afterwards ... thanks so much!!

jan 29 ~ my lovely colleagues treated me to lunch in wanchai! :D it wasn't really a surprise, but since we hadn't tried this place before, it was a nice surprise~

pics:



at night, i went to the Agnes B le pain grille cafe in causeway bay :D the food was delicious, the atmosphere was reallllly nice, and i had a really nice time. thanks for being so sweet and taking me here! i was surprised with a lovely cake from cova (super gooey chocolaty deliciousness), for which i'm glad they didn't sing happy birthday to me.. haha...

i actually posed at least 7 times for this pic.. and all i wanted was to cut it up and eat it D:
outside of the cafe :D
jan 30~ my birthday XD i woke up to rain but... it was cleared away by my receiving tons of calls, starting from 12am, all the through to 9am, and also in between sms/facebook msgs/msn msgs etc. etc.. im so so touched, especially those who live millions of miles away and still remembered to take the time to wish me a happy birthday. i really really love you guys!
i went to drink tea with my mom and lg718 in the morning at a very, very lovely restaurant in Langham Hotel tst. the food was not only very very delicious, the service was perfect (my tea was never cold) and the atmosphere very private and beautiful. my favorite dish? these poor little guys that lg718 and i chewed the faces off of D: (i'm sorry!)


afterwards, lg718 and i went on a small shopping trip around tst where (unexpectedly) i actually didn't buy anything at all. after grabbing a bottle of sparkling wine, we went back to my place afterwards to rest up and stuff before dinnertime :D we took the taxi the restaurant where i was greeted by lots of happy birthdays, presents and laughter :D the dinner wasn't as amazing as it was on my sis' birthday but i enjoyed it a LOT anyway, as my mom was back to celebrate with me and i was surrounded by all the people i love best (well most of them anyway xD). my sis surprised me with an adorable birthday cake (kenny's favorite black forest! :P)~

my favorite sentence of the night: 好落雨 = good yogurt. (courtesy of my lg718... haha)

pics:

my gifts:
my dears~
adorable bday cake courtesy of my sis:
my dearest mom~
random bear display at harbourcity~

jan 31, feb 1~ i spent the lounging away and got myself sick because of that =___=; lg718 ended up making this for me:
which was made from this: (looks like po'her tea!)
it doesn't actually taste as bad as it looks so thank goodness for that haha.. i felt lots better afterwards and after some rest, actually got a lot better!

I couldn't resist going to dinner that night with the rhhs crew, and so off i went to the last bday celebration of the week! i'll post pics of that later on when i get them from jon! :D

i cut my hair short and permed it on sunday... feb 3.. i'm still not used to what it looks like but hopefully i get used to it :D so far no negative comments which is good XD will post pics later if i can take good ones haha...

current mood: relaxed sense of mind (i hope...)