happy new year :D

happy new year everyone! :D (longgg post coming up~)

i hope everyone has a wonderful start to their year and will work hard to fulfill their resolutions (if they made any haha...)
i promise not to disappoint those who are watching out for me and caring for me. i know i am very weak and vulnerable at times, but i also know that these parts of me are small compared to the objective, fast to cool part of me... i promise to put those two parts together so that i am not too extreme on either end.
i am thankful for those who have stepped out and showed me that i am in their thoughts and that i am very much loved! i got a million text msgs last night/this morning (till 7am.. i'm not joking.. how much energy do you guys have!!) and got a few more this afternoon and i am sooo thankful for them :)
but most of all, thanks for your call ah gor (ken)~ it cheered me up, especially since you called at OUR new year's instead of toronto! i called but the lines in toronto were messed up and i couldn't reach my parents either! haha...

anyway... a few things.

1. a new start :D i am looking forward to life no matter what has been tossed to me (yes.. dinb would say i'm a crazy person, along with the 'no need to sleep' thing...)
2. looking forward to mom and dad's visit.. thanks mom for coming back to celebrate my bday! *rubs hands in glee* i am looking forward to tons of laughter and warmth.. i miss my family so much.
3. my bday is coming up! i am really excited for some reason, although most ppl stop being excited at this age i think? haha i can still see myself telling the ppl at the office straight out how old i am when they ask me... the same way i did two years ago!
4. CNY.. first time celebrate it with whole family in hk.. i hope to eat a ton of mom's cooking and seeing lots of friends and relatives that i never get to see unless parents are here!

thank you...

lg718, thank you for trying. i think i understand the situation so well, too well in fact, that i'm actually very objective about it when i talk to you. i really want everything to be smoother and everyone to be truly happy again. i am too 'happy go lucky' to be able to dwell on this type of thing for too long. no matter what it may seem like, you have taught me a lot, patience, thinking for others and about real freedom and space...i hope 2008 will be stress free for you or at least be a year where you can accomplish all that you want to...i miss your pasta and random chinese medicine tea so much! and your smile and laughter, i haven't seen or heard that in a long time.. no matter what you are facing now, please try to remember to take it simple/lightly and to remember to smile. i think the one thing i brought to you was simplicity and laughter and i hope that it is what you will have more of again in 2008. love u.. add oil!

fishy.. i cannot say how thankful i am to you. i try to tell you every day and i think words fail (for once haha...). i hope your 2008 is a good year and that you will try hard to overcome the things you want to overcome. we understand each other very very well.. so well that i really dont' need to tell you and you'll understand :) love you lots~

silly thanks so much for being here though you are so far away. you are my dearest dearest wife/sister and it was really touching for you to be the first and only person to read my previous entry... i think i meant it for you, you silly abstract thinker! i love you tons and really hope that 2008 will be even better and exciting for you. can't wait to see you again in june :) i miss you so much!

mr tuna you are always in my thoughts... we dont' talk too often and dont' get many chances to write long emails now.. but i know that u are here and i think we both know that we're always in each other's thoughts. so thankful that i was able to 'find' you again on fb and to be able to have you in my life again when i was going thru so much! i still havent' been able to find a name/word to call you yet (definitely not brother hahaha....) but i think you know what we both think/feel so i don't think it's actually needed :D

family no words needed. thankful, glad that no matter what happens, there is always warmth and comfort and laughter with you guys. lg718 really reminded me of that.
w/cooties girl you are included in this list :) love you a lot and really am glad to have you as a little mini-muimui sis who is 100% like me! but funnier and quieter :( i'm too noisy... miss you~! hurry back soon okay? love you~

nic/ah gor/mandy/my dear girls in toronto/raven: love you guys :D i miss you all and hope that i can see you in HK/toronto/vancouver sometime soon... i hope you all have a wonderful year... i cannot thank you enough for being here :)

ara, aiai, rukie bro, jachy etc. ~ hope you guys have a wonderful year (really wnat to try your brownies and stuff soon ara XD)

april etc. from work~ love love our lunchtime/dinner/yoga etc. craziness!! so glad that at work, we have such a wonderful team of people together :) love you alll~

and last thing... a pic of the tree before it was taken away ~~


current mood: trying my best...