ISLY...IRD

i recently (finally!) got fishy to send me one of my favorite songs from evangelion "thanatos if i can't be yours" and since then i haven't been able to get it out of my head again. I actually began listening to this song about 10 years ago, back when we were all still watching eva, but i lost it due to my old hdd dying. listening to it again, i've just realized how it just fits.

thanatos if i can't be yours~
Now its time, I fear to tell
I've been holding it back so long
But something strange deep inside of me is happening
I feel unlike I've ever felt
And its making me scared
That I may not be what
I think I am

What of us? what do I say?
Are we both from a different world
Cause every breath that I take,
I breathe it for you
I couldn't face my life without you
And I'm so afraid.
There's nothing to comfort us
What am I, if I can't be yours

I don't sleep, don't feel a thing
And my senses have all but gone
Can't even cry from the pain, can't shed a tear now
I realise we're not the same and it's making me sad
Cause we can't fufill our dreams in this life

So I must, let us break free
I can never be what you need
If there was a way through the hurt
Then I would find it.
I'd take the blows, yes I would fight it
but this is the one
Impossible dream to live
What am I, if I can't be yours..

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