L'arc-en-Ciel - L'7～Trans ASIA via PARIS 2008 ～ report

i finally went to the L'Arc concert in HK on saturday May 24th!! XD

all i can say is, i'm so sad it's over =.= it's like the end of a really big sugar rush, and I can't get over that i finally had the chance to see my favorite band perform in my hometown...

the concert was unbelieveble XD fishy had managed to get really good seats for us (thanks soo much dear :heart:), so we sat in the first block A, the 10th row!! Sitting there was perfect, as we got a view of the whole stage, instead of a part of it :D

We got to Asia Expo around 6:45 (i forget now..), and lined up to buy concert goods... however, i was pretty disappointed that all they had were various older cds/dvds and tshirts and less of the more 'special' concert goods so i ended up not getting anything~ i guess what also really got me were the people who actually picked up Laruku's latest cd "Kiss" and asked "when did this come out?" =.=;; i will never line up to buy concert goods/go to a concert where i dont' know anything about the band performing!!

anyway, there were SO MANY PEOPLE walking around, it was kind of unbelievable @.@ the lineup to use the female washroom was so long, i think it would have taken about 45 mins to maybe get a chance to use it @.@;; however, it was also a lot of fun to watch the people, and how they were dressed XD I saw so many 'interesting' getups and hairstyles etc. XD

around 7:45, fishy and i lined up to go inside to our seat :D i think it was around that time i started to really get excited...

there weren't a lot of people when we first sat down, but all of a sudden, we heard a bunch of girls squealing their heads off (with one remarking "OH MY GOD, this is the best day of my life! i'm such a lucky girl!!!"), and saw MANY people (mostly girls) suddenly appearing on both sides of the aisle where we were sitting. i turned around and looked to see who appeared to cause such a big fuss and the funny thing was, i had no idea at first. then, one of the girls ran up to a guy who sat nearly directly behind me and shook his hand.. the guy replied in mandarin and after listening in on the other squealing girls, i realized he was supposed to be 大東 from 飛輪海 ... if i hadn't heard, i would have had NO IDEA since i don't keep up with boy bands or anything XD;;
to be fair though, he was a LOT cuter in real life than in the pics i googled of him to show to W who i saw lol... he was really friendly and shook hands with a lot of the girls that ran up to him~ funniest thing was, after the girls stopped harassing him, he took out his camera to snap some pics, and cameras were forbidden in the arena (they checked our bags beforehand)... haha he continued to shoot pics throughout the show, which shows that not many ppl really listen to the rules XD

after all that, the lights suddenly dimmed and the show began!! we all stood up (including mr. boyband star XD he was really excited...) and started cheering!

here is the song list:

1.Get out from the shell
2.Driver's high
3.Killing me
4.drink it down
5.Daybreaks Bell
6.Winter Fall
7.永遠
8.花葬 (i nearly died.. this is one of my favorite, favorite older songs from laruku...)
9.Forbidden lover (one of fishy + my favorite songs)
10.My heart draws a dream
11.Caress of venus
12.Revelation
13.SEVENTH HEAVEN
14.Pretty Girl
15.Stay Away (member change version :D)
16.Ready Steady Go
17.敘情詩
18.Honey (loved this, hyde took out his guitar to play :D)
19.Link
20.anata

In between about 3-4 songs they would stop and do an MC... the cutest thing was, they had prepared and did each MC in CANTONESE.... it was absolutely the most adorable thing in the world~~~~ ::squealing:: i still make a random girly squeal each time i think back~~~ when i watched hyde in LA with raven, i remember hyde did the mc in english as well.. i wish i could hear the korean and paris versions lol XD i also wish ever so much i could get a copy of the mc and upload it for the world to hear =.= cantonese is pretty hard to speak, but they all managed to be able to be understood for most of it... XD

to be honest, i always thought ppl were just fangirling over hyde when they would say how adorable he was... but after saterday's mc by hyde (it was too difficult to stay awake/alive in the LA concert so i dont really remember what he said then.. =.= lol...), i absolutely LOVE him and find him so so so adorable.. he kept on reading his script to himself before speaking into the mike, and you could see his puzzled expression each time when the audience had no reaction~

he said two things i remember most.. one was something along the lines of:
"中國發生地震, 但係希望你o地開心" (there was an earthquake in China, but i hope you're all happy [tonight])
"我今日食o左皮蛋....我以後唔會再食皮蛋!" (i ate preserved goose egg today.. i will never eat preserved goose egg again!")

the second part was super super super adorableeeeeeeeeee because he made this gesture with his hand that was like "omg.. it was the worst thing i've ever ate in my whole life!"..he also shouted random "開唔開心啊??" and "跳!!" the whole time.. i think his cantonese was the best out of the four XD

ken was also very cute.. he had the worst pronunciation but was the most un-shy about speaking it, so although he'd say something and it didn't make sense (the audience was cheering and laughing each time), he didn't mind and laughed with us XD he also said something super hilarious... he was saying something about how he hadn't had anything to eat after arriving and so they ate really late and so he was super hungry... the screens at the sides of the arena then started showing pics of them having dinner at a chinese restaurant, and then a zoom in on a plate of 燒鴨... the camera then zooms in on the head of the duck, and ken then said something along the lines of:

"我覺得好好食, 但係我唔鍾意佢啤住我" (I think it was really delicious, but I don't like how it was staring at me)

that was absolutely hilarious!!! what made it funny was how he really spoke using HK cantonese slang "啤住我" XD!!!

i wish i could remember perfectly what everyone else said but unfortunately the above is all i can remember :( we were also lucky enough to sit in the area where streamers fell from the ceiling and so we caught them to wave back and forth like a pompom~ it was kind of cute to see 大東 also wrap one around his neck and wave it around while dancing like i was lol... he was so excited like a little kid.. it's refreshing to see a famous star act normal and down to earth~

some random pics. there were so many times when they let the audience sing.. it was really noisy so i wasn't sure if everyone was screaming the lyrics like i was (especially for "anata"), but hopefully they'll release this tour's dvd and we can hear ourselves XD

i forgot for which song, but hyde fell/slipped off the stage at one point (he was always jumping onto the speakers/amps the whole time, which i thought was dangerous ~_~;;) and i was like 'omfg... hyde nooo!!'.. not because he was hurt (he made the most ADORABLE "oops! :O!" expression in the world) but because ppl RUSHED forward to grab him ~_~;; i'm not sure if they did, but i know the scary girls behind me were pushing against my seat and trying to run me over to get to him ; ;... it was scary lol... i love hyde, but i dont' want to hurt him by grabbing him @.@;; even 大東 made a joke by pretending to climb over the seats like the other girls lol...

hyde sings a lot better than he used to and he was super super energetic the whole time! i hope i get to see laruku again someday, most likely in japan, and feel this type of atmosphere again... however, having the chance to see them in my hometown (and they were speaking cantonese too! lol) was something i was hoping for since i was 13, and their activities were just stopped because of the incident with sakura etc. etc~ at that time it would be unthinkable ... but look at how far they've come today :D

SO HAPPY i had a chance to seee this..... thanks x 1000000000000000000000 to fishy for lining up for the tickets (for over 4 hours too omg..), then finding contacts to get better seats T_T 太感動啦... (not mention, enduring my squeals and arm-grabbing each time they said soemthing/sang XD;;) next time, we will watch gackt together :P

current mood: touched!

raven~ O M G.. i wish you were there... you would have LOVED every single minute of it! i must follow you to their lives in japan soon =.=
also, i am a lot better now... i think screaming at the laruku concert helped XD i will do my best to 調理身體 and get better :D i hope you are not getting sick lately as well! love you tonssss!

峯~ thanks for reading my blog... i know you're not the type to read so much text (and english too) but i hope you read these msgs i leave for you :P my daily msg will not change: 小心揸車 (唔好揸咁快), 記得查sunscreen, 食多D o野, 試o下早D瞓~~

W~ so glad u're back :D

l'arc/thoughts~

l'arc concert with fishy tomorrow :D
i hope i enjoy it tons.. i'm not really feeling the excitement yet (maybe because it still seems surreal @.@;;) but i think i'll be crazy over it tomorrow XD i get to see hyde again :heart:

feeling blue-ish lately .. mostly because of all the sickness and random unsettling 'shallow sleep' :( i hope this all goes away as I take my chinese medicine and i fall back onto the path of being healthy once i start the whole 調理身體 process!
for those i haven't had a chance to talk to, I've been sick for the past month or so, taking antibiotics twice, lots of random pain medication etc. because i had an infected insect bite (LONG STORY!), then migraines, then sore throat, then more migraines, then more sore throat, then a big cold =.= it got so bad that i couldn't get well from western medicine, so i ended up taking chinese medicine (as per the advice of about a million ppl who care about me ; ; thanks~~ so touched!)... the chinese medicine made the cold symptoms come out, and thus 'cured' it... after two days of coughing, sneezing, fevers and etc. (from two weeks of cold), i finally feel better today, aside from random coughing fits now and then :D i will go back to the chinese dr after i finish the medi (which i finish later today) and hopefully i will be able to get well soon~ that's why i haven't been actively updating my blog ~_~

listening to old songs on my ipod, here's one of my favorite songs from hyde's first solo cd "roentgen"..

cape of storms

So where do I sail?
A ship losing control
My cries swallowed up, lost in the raging sea

So where has love gone?
Will I ever reach it?
The Cape of Storms echoes the pain I feel inside

You'll never notice
The colour of sin
Just as the storm clouds close in
It's dark

Here in the shadows
I am pursued
Until the ends of the earth
Embraced

The ghost ship wanders far
For there is no guiding star
And this treasure has no meaning anymore

So where do I sail?
A ship losing control
My cries swallowed up, lost in the raging sea

So where has love gone?
Will I ever reach it?
The Cape of Storms echoes the pain I feel inside

You know completely
The taste of sin
Melting sweet in your mouth
Like chocolate

A moment of pleasure
You are fulfilled
But every dream has its time
To die

The ghost ship wanders far
For there is no guiding star
And this treasure has no meaning anymore

Will this be my fate?

So where do I sail?
A ship losing control
My cries swallowed up, lost in the ranging sea

So where has love gone?
Will I ever reach it?
The Cape of Storms echoes the pain I feel inside

thanks hyde for creating such beautiful music and lyrics~

current mood: feeling empty inside =.=

ps: mr. 峯 has remarked that the text is too light and too small so basically my blog was scanned for pics only =.=... i've had ppl tell me that before, which means i should start taking more pics of myself again...and try my best to increase the font size @.@
i stopped taking pics of myself since february.. i also haven't picked up my dslr in a long while (i'm sorry Mr. Tuna ~_~), and have also left my guitar unattended in the corner as well (sorry ben 師傅T__T).. i've also neglected a lot of things that i realize i shouldn't.. i hope i can change that and pick myself up soon!

pps: pvp in wow is awesome.. i'm having a lot more fun than i did before, although i do miss my ara dear, aly, wildie, subbie and laffie (the evil twins), nodoz and etc. from our guild, and also miss the english speaking US servers, even though there was so much crazy drama back there :(

ppps: some msgs..

Mr. Tuna, good luck on your exams i really hope you get well soon :( worrying about your eye a lot...

Ara, lots of love as usual XD

Silly, can't wait to see you again dear~

my daily sms person (you know who you are :P) + fishy~~每日都提我食藥, 提我戒口...thanks ~~ 好感動喔 XD 我好番之後, 一定要陪我食雪糕! (but not from macdonald's =.=)

櫻花~

its times like these when i miss toronto :( Spring!

taken by the amazing mr. tuna (haha the name will stick), sakura trees in toronto:


and a few weeks earlier, a bit more pink (taken by Mr. t's friend who's photos are amazing as well)

according to mr. tuna, the trees were given to us by Japan back in 2001 (i remember hearing about it back when i was still at UT)~ click here for more pics by him~ for those who are in the area, the trees are at bloor and keele~ go look at them before the petals fall!

thanks for these lovely pics :D it really puts a good start to the month of may!

current mood:

ara~ i'll post pics of myself soon too :D miss you a lotttttttttttt darling~

silly~ i'm counting down the days till i see youu~

w~ omg.. less than a week and i have a little muib to look after D: D: *runs*

fishy~ i am so looking forward to may 24 XD!!!

j9~ i'm soo busy lately but i'm going to start your story this weekend when i have plenty of time to just sit and read.. i'm excited :D sorry for the late feedback ~_~;;

Olympic torch in Hong Kong :D

a quick entry to say that i saw the olympic torch pass through XD we were notified that the area around central near our building was going to be blocked due to the torch passing through, but I didn't know we'd be able to SEE it from the 35th floor!

at around 3:30ish, we began hearing LOUD screams/cheers from the supporters @.@ Yup, we could hear the cheers from the outside, inside our office (which is an amazing feat if you think about it.. we're 35 floors above @.@;;;) and a bunch of us ran to the window just in time to see the trucks/police vehicles pass through to let the torchbearers run XD it was amazing! we can see the flame shining brightly from up so far away and you can hear/feel the excitement :D it's already ended by now but i'm super glad i was able to catch a glimpse of the torch before it leaves hk :D

i couldn't take pictures (my phone camera couldn't zoom enough :( ) so i'll post some pics taken by random people...

you can see our office building in this pic (the circular windowed building in the background)~ these people were the largest group of supporters that could be seen from the 35th floor @.@ (standing in the building near the mandarin hotel)

i had to post this because i believe he's one of the most popular HK torchbearers.. mr. andy lau XD (this was in the kowloon side, near the multicultural center in tsim sha tsui.. he was the fourth runner~)

you can read more info about the torchbearing etc. here :D

i feel really excited about the olympics and such after seeing this event.. putting aside all the political aspects, although there were lots of protests etc. happening, i have to say that i'm really proud that an Asian country, our country, is hosting this event and we're able to witness it for ourselves. as many have said, this event should be about the athletes and just focusing on that aspect, i'm really proud :D

current mood: touched to be get a glimpse of the torch :D

ps: will update and post pics and stuff soon~~
pps: yay a few more
ppps: thanks for your msgs my dears.. i promise i'll msg more and call @.@

awww..

just a little bit of aww + cuteness.. thanks Weeeeeeky for sending this.

i think i will always want to keep spinning then, to keep you all by my side for awhile longer~

current mood: tired yet surprisingly not fishing :O!

ps: will update with miffy pics (thanks ravennnn :D) and my second surprise xD (thanks dragonfruit/apple pie/fishy)
pps: my darling is coming back again this year!

raven~ i got better seats XD!!!!!!!!!!!!! i wish u were here because my friend's bro knows the ppl the organised the show and they were able to help us get better seats :D but no matter.. we will get a chance to see it together again someday~~

silly~ i can't wait to see u. i'm counting down the days already :D :D :D :D

update: gifts~

long weekend again XD before my updates i wanted to post some things that i got as presents but never had time to show -__-;

i apologize for the difference in quality; it was (obviously) taken with two difference cameras and i realized yesterday that my phone camera is hopelessly scratched up so therefore the horrible pictures~

牛油b (number two :( I left the first one in Japan T____T.. long story) with lindt chocolate rabbit :D (i actually have several of these.. xD)
my unnamed bunny: i loooove him/her because of the cuddliness xD
牛油b cell phone holder~ to replace the dirty one i have at work :D
and last but not least: the thing i've been wanting to do for the past 13 years~ to watch laruku in concert! i could have flown to japan to see it but i've always hoped to see them in HK~ (now that raven's in japan, i have someone i could go with to see them with in japan :D also thanks to her that i saw hyde in LA in 2006!)

thanks for the above gifts :D i'm super super touched (waiting in line, etc etc). i hope we can get the seats exchanged to better ones... but if not it doesn't matter because the main point is that i'm able to see them in concert :D

current mood: so tired =.=

empty your bag; bare your soul

last last week, silly told me about this art exhibit called 'chanel mobile art' that was traveling around the world and which was currently showing in Hong Kong. basically the whole structure inside and out was a piece of 'traveling' art./architecture. It was erected in the empty parking lot of the old star ferry, located right near where i work~ after figuring out that the 'free admission' was actually paid in the form of a HK$10 'service charge' to select a time slot to see the exhibit, i ordered 2 tickets and went to see it last thursday the 20th! i still had half day of leave left so after going to work for a few hours, i went to the 1:15 show with my dear fishy~

when you walk in (no cams unfortunately D:) they give you an mp3 player which plays a 30 min commentary + music which takes you thru the whole structure. i really enjoyed it because it allows you some time to see each exhibit at a good pace and the commentary guides you so that you will notice the littlest details/point of view in each exhibit~ my favorite part was the sidewalk with a reflection that showed the busy day in some apartment complexes, the giant chanel purse, and the last part, where we could pick up three postcards relating to the exhibit and where we were given a moment to write one wish on a piece of paper and tie it the branches of trees inside.

my favorite postcard is used as the title of this post: empty your bag; bare your soul which basically is an expression in french "vider son sac: dire ce qu'on a sur le coeur", used when someone reveals something that was kept secret for a long time. thinking back, this really describes me as i've definitely bared my soul and have nothing to hide.

on a related note, as i've mentioned before i've been going to yoga classes lately, with focus on hot yoga. hot yoga is, according to the instructors, like medicine; it helps heal your body mentally/emotionally/physically and although its not as enjoyable as other forms of yoga may be, it gets better the more you do it, all of which i definitely agree with. how do i know? in the last session of hot yoga that i went to on sunday, the instructor, during our last relaxed 'corpse pose', told us to release ourselves, release the emotions, stress, tensions and emotions inside us and to let go. it was then that i noticed my face was feeling really 'tight', like i was trying not to give way to something. so after hearing him say "release", i relaxed my face and was surprised to realize that i was crying. i think with by crying, i let out all the inner parts of me that i don't realize are sad or at least needs to cry, and thus 'healing' and releasing and letting go. after my shower, i felt so much better about myself and i hope i continue to feel that way!

current mood:

PS: i finally got wow to run on the US client but for Taiwanese servers~ yayyyy~ will post more pics of my char soon~ i tried lock out too.. so much fun compared to leveling a priest xD

silly~ haha thanks for letting me know about this exhibit! i hope you have a chance to go, there are a lot of it that's really 'different' but i liked it and it was a good experience :D bollywood dancing is a LOT of fun.. haha if u come visit, lets go to one of those classes and have fun! it's basically "mtv style" dancing but bollywood style~ i've never laughed so much in my life! miss you sooo much~

j9~ haha when u said 'hermione hair' i laughed and realized that your lovely thick and luxiourous hair really is like hers! (but in the best way possible!) cut ittt! i haven't regretted cutting my hair at all and i know you'll look awesome with short hair too.. maybe we can somehow convince silly to cut her longgg hair as well, especially since she wants to! miss you! hope u can come visit me soon and that i can see you soon as well~ (happy belated birthday! i hope you got my card dear)~

ara~ i wish we can play together again XD it'll be sooo much fun don't you think? i'm thinking of making a lock soon too just for fun but i still need time for it -___-;;
btw, post pics soon, i wanna see the pics you were talking about xD love you~~

ramblings

long time no update XD to recap my days quickly:

1. i went to a wine & chocolate tutored tasting last week and had a lot of fun! the chocolate was all from lindt and it was really interesting to learn that cognac matches those lovely hazelnut chocolate balls from lindt very very well.. mmm~ (i think this class was very dangerous; i became so full from eating chocolate xD)

2. yoga - i've been doing a loooot of yoga~ thank goodness for my colleague who does it with me because it helps when someone pushes u to do it with them and u don't cancel class etc. often! i feel my body is getting stronger too? the detox effects from hot yoga are so good! u feel really cleansed afterwards :D the meditative effects are awesome as well and i feel so so so good to come, having left my baggage of bad memories and burdens behind me further and further with each lesson~

3. WoW - i have to tell my secret: i was sucked into the game again, this time on the taiwanese servers! as the taiwanese servers are much faster, less lag and also much fewer glitches and crashes due to the first two points, they are sooo much different from the US servers. however, the biggest con is everything (and i mean everything!!) is in chinese.. and taiwanese chinese at that, so i gotta get used to it :/ i still cant get my comp to type chinese in-game which means i can't do much to get people to party with me for quests/instances (they tend to shy away from english speakers). but to be really honest, there aren't many newbs/low levels on that server and the ones i did find were... well... not as experienced as the US players were -___-; (talk about not pulling the mob to the side and not clearing the area to aggro almost everything around u!!) and there weren't too many ppl in general? so i guess that's what accounts to the low pings~ so first time i've soloed in wow~
i rolled a blood elf priest, as we wanted to try out horde side this time (i miss alliance :( it's so so so much brighter in the alliance areas lol! less death etc.). i like blood elf a lot but i miss playing my night elf druid a LOT... but at the same time, i can't myself to start a tauren ~_~;; so i decided to just try a new race :D i'd play warlock but as i hadn't played it in the english ver. before, i wanted to have a main that i knew how to play with first and get used to the chinese gamplay, then start an alt as a lock so at least i wouldn't be clueless about everything ingame... i can't imagine the horror of playing a warlock with no idea what the commands are and also having no idea what the quests are about -___-;
i'm quite disappointed at the changes in shadow priest since i last played (about two years ago?).. i wanted to go shadow priest for pvp but with the changes, i'm going to spec disc. priest for now and see how it goes. if i play my lock well, and like it, i think i'll go with lock as my main later.. but who knows? i haven't really tried pvp in wow as i left just before the pvp stuff came in so i'll have so so much to learn -___-;

and a screenie of my current chara... apologies for the bad screenshot, i just realized i hadn't taken many since i started this character~ notice all the chinese.. i only recognize my skills/spells because of playing tons in wow but the racial trait spells, the names for professions, what to do for quests are alllll in chinese so i'm confused half the time D:


will update later with more pics and etc. since i went to the chanel mobile art exhibit today!! :D (Thanks silly for telling me about it xD)


current mood: tired, worn out a bit, and needing rest D:

1. yoga tomorrow, bollywood dancing saturday, more yoga on sun XD
2. movie night on sunday, yay!

silly~ i got your card! funniest thing was, i haven't seen you online since i got it so haven't been able to tell you.. thanks so much for being there.. i can feel your 'warm caring feelings' thru the card and i was so happy to receive it; it came at a really good time :D love you tons darling~

nic~ so sorry leh =.=; haven't been really online lately so didnt' upload the pics ah! really apologize but i will do it now for uuu~~ email u link later!
i'm glad u read my last post la, because really really touched to have seen u and i really want to tell u that you're super special to me :D (wifey ah ma! haha) love you :D take care and come back soon!!

raven~ thanks so much for your help with the miffys.. i really really appreciate everything :D love you tons! i hope you dont' feel as tired soon after each working day ... i'm just glad that you dont' get sick as easily and have gotten used to life there :D

nic's visit to hk :D

My dearest wifey nic came to visit in feb, and although we didn't have many chances to see each other (stupid telephone number thing T___T), we had a ton of fun when we did get to see each other :D

i miss her so much already T____T there are just some people you meet, and no matter how far apart you are and how long you haven't seen/talked, it doesn't matter; because it stays the same :D and nic is one of many of those people :D through her, i've met even more special people and so i love her even more for that :D

i was finally able to meet mio as well! as mio fanclub president, it was embarassing not to have met the lovely mio previously. well, nic braved thru the crowds of people and finally brought her out for me to meet! and all i can say is: she's even more beautiful in person!

at tong chiu; we had a last min dinner + dessert thing :D i haven't done the (^_^)v pose in awhile (haha it's just awkward now i think.. am i getting older?!?! :P):


group pic :D
we then went outside for a few more pics :D without a background, we ended up taking pics standing across the street from harbourcity XDmy dear donb and i:dear don and me with mio! nic loves this pic because mio is really looking directly into the camera!! mio is soooooooo adorable here :heart: (and don is nearly smiling haha...).. excuse my wonky hand position; i was trying to keep the flap open so that mio could peer out :D
i misss you nic! come back again soon!! then we can bring mio over to my place to explore :D

randomly: i finally signed up for yoga and will have started classes!

current mood: sipping tea and relaxing...

silly~ don't be silly (haha your nickname!)!! i love your longggg comments and if it helps you procrastinate, even better :P if i were next to you in real life, that would be my 'duty' anyway! cut it short for the summer :D i wish u were here, we could go places and get hair done together... i hope the snow goes away for you soon and you can enjoy lovely, balmy weather like i'm starting to get in hk XD

raven~ hahah you know what? you're the ONLY friend to see my 'other hairstyle' in person before i changed it! so shhh... gotta keep it a secret! :D i'm glad you like how it is now.. i miss you so much already!! i wish you could go with me to see the laruku concert in HK but i'm still worrying that i can't get tickets or something ~_~;; you have to take me to other lives in tokyo as well!! :D miss you! will visit you soon~

ara~ aradearest you look beautiful with any hairstyle!! :D i want to see wedding photos soon! please keep me posted on when you'll take them hon :D love ya!

kristy~ thanks .. i'm doing better and i can feel you are too! we'll both get thru all this together.. thanks for taking time off your busy schedule to read my blog and see how i'm doing. love ya tons! we need to make more calls to each other!

my hair (and ling = 天賜的..)

this was taken on my mom's cell phone (to test the camera and also the inbuilt flash.. i have to say, i need to get a new cell with a better camera next time haha.. i miss the crystal clear pics!! these pics are quite good considering it's taken randomly on a phone), and as i haven't been showing ppl my new hairstyle yet, here's a pic of what it looks like..

with my mom and brother (who looks like he's keyed into the picture)...at sunday tea~

and at a restaurant on monday (it's messier in this pic tho because it was raining outside but i posed for the pic anyway.. haha..) using flash, which is why i resemble a ghost xD

not sure about you guys but i love this hairstyle much more than my previous one (the one i cut just before CNY...).. i sometimes miss the long hair but when i look around and see all the long curly haired girls, i don't miss it anymore XD alot of people felt it was a 'waste' to have permed it and then straighten it a few weeks later (not to mention the damage D:) but i really wanted to feel comfortable with myself and i'm so glad i did it! as kenny said, this cut is a lot more 'fresh' and i feel like myself :D no longer the clueless, lost girl! (or so i hope haha) and at least my friends/family/dears are telling me they love it :D

will post more pics later of random gifts, clothing, etc. that i took during the past few weeks.. i posted pics from CNY and such in my photo album but i think there are a lot more that i haven't had a chance to post yet (dinner/drink with nic etc.). since i see nicole tomorrow, hopefully we can take more!

current mood: loving, enjoying myself and my own time...

ps: i wonder if anyone in HK knows of some good cafes? i've been reading/studying/doing hwk out of home and wanted to find a place other than pacific coffee and starbucks...

pps: after i asked my mom whether it was true they wanted another daughter (ie. me), my mom replied ".....天賜的!"... and repeated it when i asked her if it was accidental =______= hence my new msn msg... but really, you have to admit my mom is great with words haha...

ppps: no more worrying about me.. 1. i am eating properly (gained weight again!); 2. i am sleeping well; 3. i love myself! :D thanks for the love...

you guys keep coming~~ :D

just some random thoughts after the weekend:

1, all you overseas people, please keep coming to HK to visit me~~ XD after raven's and nic's visits (i still hope i can see nic and mio when she gets back D:), i realize how much i miss you all~ i promise to treat you guys to yummy dessert if you do :D (little mui: we will bake together soon! :D)

2, after much debating (whatever .. haha more like convincing my stylist to let me straighten my hair D:) i've cut my hair again and straightened it. i love it now! feels much more like myself than the weird haircut i got pre-CNY. its a lot shorter too and i think i can go for a bit more shorter soon~ will post pics after i get some nice ones taken~ (if ever haha..)

3, there have been some problems with my phone =___=; so i've been missing some random long-d calls; i'm so sorry if you're one of the ppl who've been trying to call but who haven't been able to reach me D:

4, thanks for the random emails, msgs and comments here... i haven't been awesome at responding (i am so sorry D:) but i'm trying! i am really truly thankful for the love and warmth from you all :D

5, i will promise to: i, read a good book/finish up comic books soon; ii, find a good rpg to play again; iii, practice piano and guitar more; iv, try one of lovely ara's delicious recipes (i wish you were here!! miss you tons hon~); v, clean out the old clothes in my closet~ and vi, continue to be optimistic about my unknown, yet exciting (i hope? haha) 'path'~

6, i got my bonus today finally.. something to pay taxes with =___=;

current mood: what am i doing? i have no idea...

ps: thanks fishy: i know you sometimes randomly read my blog (do you have time now? haha) and i really want to let you know that you've helped me SO so so so so so much; i dont know how and where to start explaining :) i promise to be well again soon~ and i will try to cook/bake again like i said i would haha...

touched...

an entry about destiny.

you know it's destiny and someone is special when you meet them randomly more than 10 years ago (i think it's 13 to be exact) through someone that you also met randomly... you then go on to realize that you're the same astrology sign, have the same way of thinking, similar interests etc.; just living in opposite ends of the world (and i mean that literally). then you lose contact for several years, and you drift apart...

however suddenly one day, a few years later, you meet someone who just happens to know that person and through that link, you find that special person again! and you realize after talking again, that after all these years.. NOTHING has changed..you also realize that you may not be the bestest of friends who talk every single day and who see each other often, but there is a bond between you two that cannot be broken simply by time apart.

the finale comes when out of the blue, she happens to read read something on your blog that touches her; because she thought the exact same thing, and went through the exact same struggle, singing the same song.

the conclusion? my special dear dear friend msged me out of the blue to tell me the above.. and in the few msgs we sent back and forth, we knew what had happened to us both without need for any long-winded explanations; we just knew. i haven't been as touched as this in awhile, and i felt like bursting out in tears, although i haven't been able to cry for awhile. to know that someone out there truly really just went thru what you went thru and came to the same eventual conclusion is very very touching; no matter what has happened, you know that what you've decided is correct and that there is no need to be scared; you are never truly alone.

all i can say is thank you for your touching blog entry, especially this:

"I can so openly admit that I love her (haha) and wish with all my heart that she leads a rewarding and an amazing life. If there exists a person out there who is my other half, she would be it. :)"

i love you too! no matter how long we were not in contact, i thought of you constantly and wished the best for you.. especially now that we both have finished struggling, and the skies are no longer cloudy, it'll just get better, i know that for sure.
you are always on my mind dear :) we will always be entwined and connected in some way.

take good care of yourself! although we've never met in person (which is the most shocking part), i hope we get to do that soon~

current mood: truly touched~

ps: mr. tuna, fishy, raven, silly, j9, ara, case bro etc etc. all of you are my special, darling dears and we are all entwined... just think of how we met and how we're still talking/"found each other" again! i am so thankful to have you guys here :)

pps: i will promise to
1. post pics of my bday gifts 2. post cny pics 3. post pics of my new haircut when i get another one this weekend :D

ppps: here is a pic from my bday dinner/drinks with the rhhs bunch :D love you guys~

thanks :D i'm seeing the the sunshine for real!

just a short note (i'll write a long update about CNY and such later on when i have more time haha.. sorry! i need pics from ppl still!) to all my dears:

i love you all. and i know now :) i was so lost before, and didn't realize...it took a lot before i could see the whole situation clearly! i want to tell you all that i'm ok, and no longer need to worry about me... no matter where u guys are, toronto, ottawa, vancouver, japan, hk or anywhere.. i hear your cheering, i feel your support, and i see the love... and i am sooo thankful that this situation brought back my dear dear friends.

i promise now that i will not do this to myself anymore, and i realize how effortless it was.... i didn't realize that yeah it's tough but it isn't as bad as i thought it would be; it was only bad because i imagined it would be and not that it really was!

current mood:

raven~ as promised, next time u see me, i will be so different! i was so glad to see u for that one hour no matter how short.. i miss u a lot already but i will visit u for sure. i can't wait to see you again!! please promise to take me around to places and to delicious food :D

nic~ call me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

silly~ muah! i love you, that's all you need to know. i will wait for u to come back to try that delicious wine :D

mr. tuna~ thank you! i cannot say anything else.. i see it now and am sooo glad for your support!

happy chinese new year!

i will post pics from those several days soon :D

for now, i found an old old song that i've loved since I was... 14-15? so for many years i've sang this song and only recently remembered it. the lyrics:

光の中へ

握りしめた手をほどいたなら
たぶんこれですべてが今終わってしまう

知りたかったこと　傷つくことさえも
何ひとつ　やり残したままで

あなたが出会う幸せを願いたいはずなのに
できない未熟な自分に　拭いても涙が出る

さよなら
愛してる　あなたを誰より
宙(そら)よりも深く
泣かないで
また会おうね
でも会えないこと　私だけ知っているの

こんな運命をえらんだこと
いつかあなたにも本当の意味が分かるわ

二人作った記憶の宝
ずっと心の隠れ家で生きてくよ

きれい事だと思ってた希望という言葉を
苦しいくらい抱きしめてあなたを見上げている

ありがとう
愛している　あなたを誰より
夢よりも強く
抱きしめて　離さないで
だけど一言も　伝えられないで . . .

泣かないで　愛している
遠く離れてても
あなたと生きてゆける

current mood:

my birthday celebration post :D

i finally have a little bit of time after my birthday to write down and post pics of everything. thanks again for all the surprises and fun and love :D

jan 28~ had a lovely bday lunch and dinner with irene and ray :D (thanks!) i was feeling a bit off that day but felt a lot better afterwards ... thanks so much!!

jan 29 ~ my lovely colleagues treated me to lunch in wanchai! :D it wasn't really a surprise, but since we hadn't tried this place before, it was a nice surprise~

pics:



at night, i went to the Agnes B le pain grille cafe in causeway bay :D the food was delicious, the atmosphere was reallllly nice, and i had a really nice time. thanks for being so sweet and taking me here! i was surprised with a lovely cake from cova (super gooey chocolaty deliciousness), for which i'm glad they didn't sing happy birthday to me.. haha...

i actually posed at least 7 times for this pic.. and all i wanted was to cut it up and eat it D:
outside of the cafe :D
jan 30~ my birthday XD i woke up to rain but... it was cleared away by my receiving tons of calls, starting from 12am, all the through to 9am, and also in between sms/facebook msgs/msn msgs etc. etc.. im so so touched, especially those who live millions of miles away and still remembered to take the time to wish me a happy birthday. i really really love you guys!
i went to drink tea with my mom and lg718 in the morning at a very, very lovely restaurant in Langham Hotel tst. the food was not only very very delicious, the service was perfect (my tea was never cold) and the atmosphere very private and beautiful. my favorite dish? these poor little guys that lg718 and i chewed the faces off of D: (i'm sorry!)


afterwards, lg718 and i went on a small shopping trip around tst where (unexpectedly) i actually didn't buy anything at all. after grabbing a bottle of sparkling wine, we went back to my place afterwards to rest up and stuff before dinnertime :D we took the taxi the restaurant where i was greeted by lots of happy birthdays, presents and laughter :D the dinner wasn't as amazing as it was on my sis' birthday but i enjoyed it a LOT anyway, as my mom was back to celebrate with me and i was surrounded by all the people i love best (well most of them anyway xD). my sis surprised me with an adorable birthday cake (kenny's favorite black forest! :P)~

my favorite sentence of the night: 好落雨 = good yogurt. (courtesy of my lg718... haha)

pics:

my gifts:
my dears~
adorable bday cake courtesy of my sis:
my dearest mom~
random bear display at harbourcity~

jan 31, feb 1~ i spent the lounging away and got myself sick because of that =___=; lg718 ended up making this for me:
which was made from this: (looks like po'her tea!)
it doesn't actually taste as bad as it looks so thank goodness for that haha.. i felt lots better afterwards and after some rest, actually got a lot better!

I couldn't resist going to dinner that night with the rhhs crew, and so off i went to the last bday celebration of the week! i'll post pics of that later on when i get them from jon! :D

i cut my hair short and permed it on sunday... feb 3.. i'm still not used to what it looks like but hopefully i get used to it :D so far no negative comments which is good XD will post pics later if i can take good ones haha...

current mood: relaxed sense of mind (i hope...)